I too used to think my body was the problem.
No matter how hard I tried, I still felt like I was getting nowhere, and not much further from where I had started.
No matter how much time, effort, energy and money I poured into following coaches, following specific diets, protocols, plans and following all the the abc’s to get me to xyz - it just somehow wasn’t working for me.

The push through done well and continuously will lead you straight to the disconnection, dysfunction and dis-ease that resides within your body when you choose not to listen. The less you listen, the less you can hear. The stories running this conditioning for me have generally been related to time; ‘I’m running out of time’, ‘I don’t have enough time’, ’I just need to get this done’, ‘If I don’t do it, it won’t get done’…

It will never make up for your lack of self-esteem, your demoralising self-beration and your continual self-rejection that is ruling your world beneath the surface. There is no amount of external work you can put on - or pay for - that will cover up what you’re not addressing within. How hot you look has nothing to do with how hot you are, and can be. Hot is an energy. It’s what you radiate when you are grounded in who you are.